At the end of secondary school I auditioned for the theatre academy. I really wanted to become an actress, preferably in musicals since I also really liked to sing. I have to admit that I was a little astonished by the atmosphere of the academy; I had imagined that it would look a little like the school in the musical fame (since my secondary school really resembled that), but it did not look like that at all... It looked clean, neat and tidy. At that point I started to doubt whether this was the place for me. Yet I did not want to give up on my dream... It was the day of the audition. There I stood, my big moment. I did the monologue they had asked me to prepare and suddenly was given an improvisation assignment. I was supposed to perform the monologue (which was about a failed actress) as if I had won an Oscar. Nothing my teacher ever said prepared me for this and all I could do was stand there and think: what on earth am I doing here? I forgot my lines for the first time in my life and went home a little dazed. I suddenly realised that the world of theatre would never be mine; I was simply not strong enough. I did try to get into a different theatre school, yet there you would be taught in acting, singing and dancing. I did not get through the audition day and I cannot blame them; the only part where I actually stood out was during the singing lessons. So yes, after secondary school I again was confronted with the fact that I was not good enough.